So, I shot rolls of cheap film on a few different 35mm cameras, and never sent them in to be developed. Did it matter what they turned out like? The process alone was so freeing. No instant gratification, no perfect metering and composition. No redo. I loved it. After all the fluff was gone, and there wasn't any pressure to produce anything that might be liked, I figured out that I really do have a passion for photography and for the subjects I shoot. Happy, happy, happy.
A fellow film shooter wrote a blog post about what makes a person a "real photographer." Is it money? Clients? How many clients? If we judge our art based on income and popularity, there's a handful of fantastic photographers that wouldn't be counted in. Same with painters, musicians, builders, tinkerers, basically anything. But, if you passionately pursue some form of artistic expression, study it, grow in it, learn it, then I call that good 'nuf. If you still pursue it when no one is watching, and love it even when you have zero audience, that's when you know. Because really, my driving force is the audience of One. The Master Creator, who gives and takes away, and chooses what His creation does, for His glory and our good. Be still my heart.
I did finally send in some rolls of film to get developed. Let me assure you that they were nothing earth-shattering or spectacular. But they make me happy, and knowing the process that produced them makes me happy.
These are a few from our trip to WV last month. Shot with a Canon AE-1 Program on Kodak Max 400 film. I'm not sure how I feel about Kodak Max yet, although I don't prefer it over Fuji. The AE-1 may be my favorite camera, since the shutter on my Nikon FE sticks and apparently the film never loaded properly bc the entire roll was blank. I guess you can't win them all. ;) The detail in the leaves on the trees was pretty amazing.