Lately, I've made an effort to put myself and my work out there to the wider photog community and I've been blessed to be accepted and meet some crazy talented women. It's such an encouragement and inspiration to be supported by them! I have, however, also found that it can cram my brain with thoughts like, "Wow, why can't I shoot like that?" Pretty much something I've wrestled with ever since I first picked up my camera. As a lifetime perfectionist, I am my own worst critic, no doubt about it. This whole thing has been such a refining process for me, as God has shed light on dark areas of my heart and my life. Coming to grips with who we are in Christ, each as a different part of the body and offering something unique to the whole, can be a grueling thing. Why is that? Jesus never told Peter, "You know, I would love you more if you could be more like James." He wants us to be US, to bring to the table what He has placed in our hearts to do.
I will get that, eventually.
In the meantime, I'm going to keep shooting what I love - REAL LIFE. God didn't give me pretty little girls with whispy hair and dresses (that's why I have friends with little girls!). He gave me boys... messy, dirt-loving, crawdad digging, mismatched clothes-wearing BOYS. And my personal work will always reflect that. It's okay that it doesn't look like someone else's life, because it's not. This is our life. Including the snorkel. And sometimes, a shot of my teenager. ;)
"Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men..." - Colossians 3:23